Lyssa Love's Existence

So I had a dream bout Michael Bublé before I woke this morning. Let’s just say it was a good dream. Traveling with Michael in my dream was awesome felt so real. But as I woke and laid in bed I started to think “Wow what’s my deal with being attracted to musicians, particularly singers. My mind was racing and I started to think back bout all my crushes and analyze it,as I am doing now.

It all started when I was like around 5. My mom ask me who do I want to marry, I said Michael Jackson. I would listen to his albums all the time and at that age I was confident that I would be married to Michael Jackson when I was older. Well, that went away quick as soon as I heard of a group called New Kids on the Block. My eyes filled with glee I thought they were the greatest thing on earth, especially Jordan Knight and Joey McIntyre. I had all there merchandise from pins, blankets,pillow cases, and dolls(err which my dad kept in storage and gave to me in 2006 still in mint condition).
I would memorize there songs by heart and sigh every time I looked at their posters or music videos on MTV.

Well that time my mind got blocked by a boy name Leo. Leonardo DiCaprio. Although he not a musician, he sure caught my attention by his acting. This was when I was like 10. I first starting seeing him on a show called ‘Growing Pains”, then branched out to seeing him more in movies. I saw everything he was in Critters,Romeo & Juliet,Titanic (omg saw that like 10 times).You name it I saw it. I guess at this time was my thing for Actors.hahah. Even with Leo I started liking other actors like Jeremy Jackson from ‘Baywatch’,Devon Sawa from ‘Now and Then’. Leo was always my #1 but tied with Jeremy and Devon. Watching Jeremy was mainly on ‘Baywatch’ but Devon took my heart with the ‘Now and Then’ Character. These dudes were so dreamy to me. These crushes soon phased out but weren’t that strong after 1998. The Boy Band Era.

In 1998 I became hooked on Boy bands again. Yes a group of guys cooing me with their dreamy voices. I started hearing songs from Backstreet Boys and I fell for Kevin. I also thought Nick was cute but he reminded me of Devon and all the other girls were crushing on him so meh. lol That soon too quickly change when I heard a song called ” Tear’n Up My Heart” by Nysnc. I was enamored with a boy named Justin Timberlake. His baby blue eyes and his curly blonde hair had me at hello. Mind you I still have a thing for Justin even now in 2009 but it’s just not the same as before. I think it faded when I met him in 2008 at Obama rally in Las Vegas.I thought I was going to go ape shit when I met him but I didn’t. I thought to myself ’ Lyssa you’re not a nut case like many other fan girls you have met, be proud.”HA! After Justin took a break from music around 2007-ish, I started to have admiration crushes on many Indie artist.

One in particular was a guy name Tony Lucca. His voice was a voice of an Angel. So powerful when he sings and it’s mind blowing.Also a guy that he was touring with guy name Josh Hoge.A country boy with a soulful sound that would leave me breathless. I too met Tony and Josh in person and I get nervous around them.EKK These guys are hot and actually around my age.lol This was a total 180 from the Boy Band guys and Teen-bopper actors.

This leads me up to present day, when my ears would hear the loveliness of an artist name Michael Bublé. He sensual voice made my heart fluttered and me sigh every time I’d see him smile.
So after name dropping on very guy I like in the entertainment industry leads to my original question why am I attracted to them? I think each guy took me away from reality for a split second and carried me away with shaping them as my dream guy. I am a sap for Romanticism. I appreciate good music and movies. They sing a song or act a role as the knight and shining armor. I think too that they open themselves up with their mind, body, and soul. This doesn’t make them a less of man but to some girls it makes them a hot ass mutha fucker.;p

So for all you reading this and that think I need to get a real man, I will always compare the guy I’m dating to the Leo’s or the Timberlake’s. Maybe that’s why I’m so picky. I want to be serenade, taken away or memorized. I am in LOVE with LOVE and the whole dream guy thing. I know one day I’ll met a guy like that but until then I’ll keep Dreaming.

* Follow up- Note: This blog just bout crushes, not my lovers. crushes. I do realize that these guys too are not perfect and the media shapes them to be what I see as a ‘dream guy’. I’m not dreaming to marry them,just analyzing why I was crushing on them.Overall I see that til the day I met a guy that is my ideal guy then I have every right to keep dreaming.LOL Whoa!? - To all my guy friends who analyze this! Relax.Notice I didn’t list my IRL crushes cause I think many would be butthurt or jealous bout my other IRL crushes;p*


” The Vegas girls with JT”-My mom said all those years of meeting him and you do that face? HAHA oh well.